a new post after 5 years!

Wow, I just read some of my old posts & I can't believe that I have changed so much over the past 5 years. Nonetheless, it is indeed interesting to read about my past experiences, my thoughts, the things I have done and people that I have met. I had a sudden revelation recently that I should keep a blog to keep track of my life experiences and perhaps read them again 10 or 20 years from now.

Suffice to say, much has happened in the past 5 years. I changed jobs, got married, got fired from my job, hauled into a police station, thrown into a lock up, charged in court and got a new career in property. Life is a journey of experiences & I certainly had one heck of a ride so far. All that aside, I've learnt to be wiser, smarter and also matured as a person. I have also learnt that my wife & my family are extremely important to me, for they have stuck by me and supported me despite all the crap I put them through. The one thing I really need now is to take a good holiday & enjoy for a week or two before I embark on the next chapter of my life's adventures..

Another reason why I'm restarting my blogging habit is that I want to chronicle my daily thoughts for my child to read in future! Yes, I'm going to be a papa! I will never forget that moment on Vesak Day 2012, when my missus walked up to me while I was playing FIFA 12 on the Xbox and showed me the postive pregnancy test kit...



I drew a blank at first as I thought it was a false positive. We were both planning for a baby in early 2012 but too many things were happening at the same time (planning for our wedding ceremony which was long overdue, awaiting for a closure on my police case etc.) I had changed my plans and wanted to have a baby in 2013 instead. So when I saw the test kit, I was stunned for a moment before a wave of excitement gushed all over me. I jumped up from my seat & sprang towards the bedroom where there was another spare test kit. Josephine took the test again but the signal was very faint. I kept my hopes & prayed for morning to arrive quickly before I ran over to the Guardian pharmacy opposite our place to grab 2 more test kits. The digital kit finally confirmed the pregnancy and I was ecstatic! Yay!

We broke the news to my wife's parents followed by my parents. We did not want too many people to know till we are 100% sure of the pregnancy. What followed on were several blood tests done by a gynecologist recommended by mum-in-law. The doctor had setup her own private practice 2 weeks ago and I must say she hired a very blur nurse (who wasn't able to draw blood after several attempts & finally relegated to being the cashier where she managed to screw up several times too) Nonetheless, we needed the doctor's advice & ultrasound scan so we held our nerves and went through it all on our first visit. As I predicted, on the 6th week of the pregnancy, after much trepidation, waiting & anxiety, we went for the ultrasound scan the 2nd time (the first scan showed nothing as it was too early). The doctor did a tummy scan which showed nothing again (my heart was pounding like mad while I stood strong beside Jo to calm her) Finally, the doctor did an internal scan and voila! She gave us the first glimpse of our child! It was really quite the moment when the doctor said "Ah, here is your baby" Although the baby is just 5mm at this juncture, it is truly amazing to see that it already has a heartbeat and slowly growing to become our baby!

To my parents, papa & mummy, I just want to say I love you both very much and you have both been the best parents I can ever ask for. It is true that when you have your own child, you'll learn to appreciate your parents more and the hardship that they have to endure through the years.

To my wife, you're the love of my life and I'm very lucky & fortunate to have married you. I know I get on your nerves most of the times with my silly antics but do know that you mean the world to me and I'll be the best husband & father that I can be.

To my child, you are just 5mm now and really really tiny but you're growing very quickly each day! Papa & Mama loves you very much & we are looking forward to welcoming you in Jan 2013! You'll enjoy the love & care from the whole family! Stay healthy, be strong and we'll see you real soon!

I used to say that my friends have changed drastically since they attained parenthood (where they are obsessed with their child & their child comes before everything) Back then, I could never really understand why...now, I do :)